changes made

Readers,
Basically this blog will be dead, a seldom post. Changing place to tumblr. Tag if you miss. Link if you free(: This blog have thousands of dwellin of the past moments, wont be deleting. Love you.
xoxo, amirah(:

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night for peoples

Surprisingly, weeks around this corner wasn't that pack but i still have no time to be sitting on this flat screen and updating my life diary. Sorry boo. Wonderful been accompanying me, little soul. Sadly, peace dearest necklace poofft away. Hmpf, thanks love for that. Had a little chat with Adib awhile ago. Informing him on the BBQ event upcoming. He suggest a theme for aesthetic night for those who will be tagging along with me(: ' Dress to impress ' Basically, he want the guys to be wearing kemeja. For the ladies, a striking colourful dress. He superbly excited with his own themes arrangement for us. Hey, i did notice something in life. Been gaining those lovees friends smoothly but wonderful friends seems to be fading away. Is it because when event occurs the bonding reunite or it just us. The different life that we lead, i have no idea either.

Jealous much

" it sweets when someone knows every single detail about you. not because you constantly remind them, but because they pay attention. and i love him for knowing me better then the rest. your respect is my honour."

One Two Three, I Love You

Happy finally Sixteen Nadia Sarenah (Y) and Happy advanced old stage Thirty Six Mummy (L) & finally Sixteen Syazwan (Y). Three precious soul celebrating their wonderful momments for this month. Soul that bring impact in life. Without her, im no where to be seen on earth and dont know how i'll build myself up. Without him, i have not learn treasuring a friendship then relationship. The importance of defining love in real terms. Without her, i cant see how well i uphold a long term friendship in a distance. I just damly love you three. Especially, you, mum. & you, doesnt mean it history that can never change, could not change our future for a old friendship. I treasure that 7 years rather then that unsuppose happening 7 months. Little missy, i miss you. Meet up soon. Ladies night, here we came!

the message of quotes

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes. Remember that boyfriend.

"Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive. Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

- thanks love for the message.

Life is such an terrible expectation.

Ever wish to be running away from all the typical reality life or to be exact teenage words- 'problem' you had ever have. I did and i really mean it. Nagging sucks. School will be worsen. I have no exact words to describe this sucks life. I hate my brothers, i really did. Stupid blood ties, morons. You, another shit thing that happens. Current mood, plucking. Hate you, you and only you. Stop sending all those text message. Dam you! If one day, you saw a human body filled with blood as she been trying to do her own self airborn. Tired of leaving. Dont wonder off, who she is. As it might be me. Ouhh my god! Typical life. Im so irritated. Yada yada yada.

Owning Credits Card

Diary,

Been wondering when are those magic swippers card goin to be mine. Glee if to own one. But i wont been abutt with having those around, just like mummy. Grab and swip the only two simple words in mind. Debts would be sum up by end of every each wonderful shopping months. Spectacular! Nails done up. Closets full off. Countless heels, gladiator and sneakers to worn. Life would be simple and easy. No fashion matters anymore. But all that fairyfashiontale, could fantasize when stable job been found. No financial matters and obviouslly when the time of life reaches happy Twenty-One. Keep dreaming and fantasing, xoxo gossipgirls.

If live would be continues

" If you can live forever, what would you die for"

- a question from MrEnglish Tajularus .

" If you could live forever which cant be happening, why must you die after it occurs."

- an answer to his question

the day when you plead back, i will say fuck you

Single life is better then what you can ever imagine. But, true sometimes you kind of missing those warm hugs. Juicccyy kissess. Wonderlands goodmorning and goodnights textes. Especially starring at his meaningful eyes. Hearing his wonderful voice.

Precious soul in life

Pray hard for grandny recovery. Supposingly plan for mother days dinner with daddy. For both grandny and mum. But turn up i went to malaysia to visit nanny. Parents cant make it. So i myself went there. Aunty pick me up at checkpoint. Condition getting worse then ever. I miss her cooking and her naggings that always been continue and non stop. End up dinner only made for mum and her mum. Poor mustafah, he had not have the chance to celebrate this day with his mum. But grandny appreciate those necklace that you bought for her. She's the key to his heart. I find it lame for a heart of keys locket but after hearing the meaning to it. I muchly appreciate daddy thoughts. Mummy had a consert ticket and a necklace stating thier first date of knowing each other and get into real bussiness love issue. Poor baby, aunty took care of him. Mummy and daddy go for a date. Eeew! Haha.







This awesome people make my day a perfect oness. Supposingly this outin would be cancel. But we just stick to it. Who cares if it were weekdays and many cant make it. Seems nothing to me. Pictures are uploaded in adib's facebook.

They finally sixteen

jiale elisha wong

*ignore that idiot on the right*

chen jinghui faerlyn

It been a fast year. Finally my two wonderful friends, Jiale and Jing Hui special day have come. Make this exact Sixteen years of your life time fill with laughters and happiness with the onees you love. Fuck exam, just enjoy it. May all your wishes come true my dears. Love ya (Y)

Orchard Trips.

Headed to town. Awesome, free food(: I love my stuff that been brought. I love piece shirts. I love peace bag. I love the peace accessorize. I love the peace shop. I love Haziqah. I love Dini. I love them accompany me. I love the cotton on pants. I love the Rubi shoes. I love those shorts. I love that flips at bare foot. I love my new skins. I love my free double chocolate. I love my old phone ): I love the bangles watch. I love prepaid but mostly i love you ! That cant be bought either with money nor credit cards. Goodnight, love you (:


The short question he asked
make me reminisces of the old time
i had with that guy. Even though it just
an addresses but it mean alot during that memories.

Slacking isint that bad after all.

A packet of fully blood could make me vomit like hell yesterday. Thanks eye candy for accompanying me. Love god for sunshine. If not, i should be drenched out. Dating the doctor was kinder fun, haha. No injection been made just the transformation of blood and weight gaining, ouhh my shit! Then after slack with wonderful(: it was bored initially but then great. We were like teasing yaya and idz for cops car and they like running their buts off. Haha! Should record their reaction. Funny bits. Im sitting in front of this comp while yaya is still SLEEPING!

Log in on Facebook and get a notification on my wall. This idiot randomly post i love you bestfriend on my wall. Sweet sangat(: Haha! Okayy random. Im bored now. Hidayah wake up preety soon la. She seems so tired, haha. Niyang Rapik half way then tido.

the curiousity i had in you.

Bestfriend plus myself sometimes really could resist people attitude. If they seems to turn around with words that they ' would make it' but end up not. Why am i and her giving them face. Did hold some grudges but just hard to revenge it back then. Hating people alot this days. Attitude of them = one words, which is typical. Today seems different. We are nothing but it seems you are making me your someone. Please, dont. Ignore me was the first thing you did in the morning. I will be okayy with it. But end up i got pissed up by you. Now, you are texting me asking why im acting this way. One word for your reply is that i dont even know. Anyway we are nothing for you to be care about. Goodbye, friend(:

Only he knows who he is.

p.s good nights eye candy (L)

- someone that creates to be part of my heart.

holidays

Finally im back. Eye candy pick me up while others grab their breakfast at airport and will be helding to aunty house for BBQ. Tiring moments, left at 2 am after slacking with wonderful peeps and bestfriend has a new hair style (Y). Thanks idzboyfriend for the goodbye message(: Roughly hit our starting holiday at 6- the first flight. Dam it. Plan changed from Tioman too Bintan. If Singapore lines can be use in other countries with the same charge and signal. Life would be easy. No misses, no worries and forever there this buzzing sound of phone and a caller to my screen. I did miss you, eye candy (L) I did get you a chocolate. Later having lunch together. At home alone. Gahh, boring. I dont why i didnt take a picture of myself. I miss you, friend (Y)

21 04 2010

Dear diary technology,

Attire check today, im safe. Phew! What should i do, none of those science lesson is helping me. Im totally giving up with it. Thanks lovely partners for trying to help. D.O.P has ended. There goes the starting of Mr English lesson again. Ms FormTeacher seems naggy these days eventhough she caring but it irritating, anyway i appreciate it alot (: Ms Mathematic seems to be so slacky. It Mid year coming up okayy. She seems to be not worrying for this days to come but no one can teach like she do. Excellent speed in writing skill alright. Ms MotherTongue seems happy with us today. Those cheeky wonderful was so tired that all of us fall asleep. That why she had her smile all along. Haha! Just for today alright. Mass run tomorrow. Long term MC as usual. If there no 2.4 no MC then but if there is im sure my an excuse for myself.

His bestfriend, flower boy.

Awesome today, supposingly were having Social studies test and this fellow up here, usually did not prepared and normally would sleep but i guess his to hyper for today that he created a 'sweet' and irritating letter to his bestfriend on our supposingly test writing paper. I laugh the hell out of it. The other wonderful people too. I promise him to blog about this. So here it goes. The letter that he write for his Bestfriend.

-intro-
Hello, my name is Qaiyum.
I am a normal human,being with two eye ball, two ears, two nostrils, one mouth, two hands, two legs and not forget, two ... BALLS !

-my hobby-
My hobby is playing soccer football and girl-ing. Usually is play soccer football at India, i travel there almost everyday. I do my girl-ing at the net. I already caught a few girl during my last few sessions of my girl-ing. I really like it alot. It is very interesting. I used to like soccer football more than girl-ing, but now is another way round.

-my school-
I am schooling at Woodgrove Secondary School. This school is the best. The teachers here is very friendly. I do have a lot of friends in school, my friends are all funny! HAHAH. An example, my Best friend. He just got cane last week. After that caning, i realised that he lose his two balls. That's not funny -.-". But wait, I think something strange is the replacement for his balls, a flower. Come on, repeat after me, Flower! Flower!
HAHAH. LAME! -.-"
My Best friend :D

Another of Today

Monday morning seems blue but today miracle happen and turn my day too wonderful ones. Morning, had a talk with Ms FormTeacher. Thanks for the advice. Mr English lesson were no longer bed time story, lucky for me. Im done for my presentation. So im eager to hear the rest, perfect! Mr DNT was not that bossy today, theory =.= Ms Mathematics continue with group test nut end up planing for Sentosa Friday. Haha! Mr Physics make me learn, can i believe it. Im writing notes. I could rather study with colour pen then those pale looking blue or black. Ms MotherTongue as usual giving her a bad time. We were shouting "Bomb" here and there. She totally wacked out. Too bad, that the way for us to be alive in class. Rtaher then we sleep, which you prefer. Adults in school has a new hobby. Looking out for teenagers in white top and blue bottom attire((: They got caught. Lunch in Banquet, thanks Bestfriend. Meet yaya then off to nowhere with laughter. I hate when people calling me and i was in the toilet cleaning myself up.

the reason to my living

Have you wonder why, the opposite sex of you always thing that you are important but sometimes. You, yourself thing that you sucks and life seems meaningless. People think the world out of us. Without us, his life is meaningless. But for us, we felt sick of living. I have my answers to the wonders. " You always been the thoughts in my mind. The heart beat in my soul. The reason to my smile. The meaning of my living. The name on my phone. The sound to my life. You seems to be everything that i would say Life is Perfect. " Another week of Monday tomorrow. The glance will be there on you, my dear. No one would know those misterious eyes for those secret vision on too. Te amo, my boyfriend. Till tomorrow where eyes meet together.

For she he left her

If life would be timeless, a pad on every soul shoulder would be a great thing to do. By telling them that life is long, love is still there to be search. The one that you are now with doesnt mean will be yours till your last breath. The one that you use to hurt doesnt mean it gone. The one you cant erase of will be initially gone without you realising it. Thanks to the other soul that been entering in your life. Someone did advise me, give others a chance to have your heart because every guys has their own sincerity in love. It true but you cant force reality to be your own fairytale. It hard though but no one would know the truth in your sentence of heart.

Dont break with her because the tiny crush you had on she, because you will evnetually know that she would break your heart on the strong love she had for he. Think back on how him left her for she and how she left him for he.

Husband dont treat them welly

Wednesday was superly happy day. Clash on to Syariff and guess what Mr Hotstuff, he give me this widening smile. My heart pump has a train track. Ouhh my! Then i kept walk off from DNT room to Parade Square just to look at him again. Bestfriend were there to she was enjoying a vision of her sweetheart. Seriously i did ask Mr DNT a random question so that he wouldnt blow off when he saw us outside the girls toilet looking at teachers. Night did slack for a moment. I get to know something new. Haha! Thanks people for wiping all the sadness and change it to stupid laughter.

Today was having this stupid Ms Scolding section. I was wondering what had happen to all the Ms in school. They seem to be angry and bossy today. It thursday. Come on. Because of fan make a huge fuss. What the hell.

The lucky soul

I just love when he used to message me "Goodnight" and "Goodmorning".

It simple as you can see but the thoughts of wishing me that counts. If

you were mine eventually, i will be the happiest human soul in this planet.

Knight in Shiney Armor

p.s i love you too. good night, boyfriend (:

- someone from god

i miss the day

I miss school today. Been transferring monday check up to today instead. I cant bear this lahh. all those yucky tablets. What the hell. I miss school, i miss seeing his face and i miss saying- "ting tang ting tong, ting tang ting tong. " People sure will be pissed by me, especially dedee. Yeah, almost forget i miss Mr english boring lesson too. Power ! How assembly went about. I wonder why did i miss today. I should go to school. I miss him you know.

The fairytale of my directory

I watch from a distance, you made a life on your own. Every sky was your own kind of blue. Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie. It is the kind ending you dont really want to see as it a tragedy and it will only bring you down now, i dont know what to be without you around. and we know it's never simple, never easy, never a clean break, no one here to save me. you're the only thing i knew like the back of my hand.

Would you be mine like the days i use to dream. you came upon me and threw me a kiss. I woke up of feeling being a Snow White and smile to you with a widening smile. If life is easy as Cinderella story, where all happy endings will be touched in life i would not be neglected with the word called Love and you my be a lasting soul in my hole of heart. where did i go wrong or had my heel been found by him not you or you are the one who been chasing a heel without an owner. im confused. But goodbye Prince Charming, you will be forever in my heart deep in. as the Knight in Shiney Armour had placed his heart from your poison spelled love that held me away every time i breath.

Life cant be a Fairytale but you can make it come alive.

Days by days there are better

Omg, this bonding been

brought till Facebook. Oh my!

I just love them that freaking much.

Miss the plan for kite today as followed mum

to grandny house. If not she will nag all along. Bla bla bla bla.

The other better half (:

People use to say, we are twins. I totally agree! She use to be my ear when we were sitting side by side. I know her bad and goods same as she knew mine. Eventhough we did been apart since in a different class but the friendship we had did not make us strangers. She the first one i get to know before Bestfriends. We did shared the laughters and scold together. Teachers would be totally wacked out with us. This days, reminsce me of her and me back then. I cant deny that we are being closer again. She always spare me thoughts on those bad days. You cant find her anywhere in others. Her crapness, laughters and irritating attitude I just love her more and more each days. Dont be jealous if you hadnt have her as your friends or even raceas twins((: I love to called her JIE MIN

The heroes !

Dont be jealous people, if we say 4NA'10 is the bestest among you people. We cried because we cared. We hurt because we share. I love them and we love us. Today have shown every single thoughts in us towards you four.

Four heroes.

It friday and isnt it should be the best day

of a week. but not this time. i just hate today.

if today shouldnt happen, it will be all perfect. but

this is reality though. it hurt when seeing someone you

love like friends, especially the friends that always shared

tears and laughter together gets hurt. torn me apart when judging

it just now. i did not even had a glance at all times. i only heard that

pathetic wacking sound. they are brave enough to stand upon others

who also would have at fault. i love them, no matter what.

no matter what they do, they deserve a second chance especially from us, their friends <3

My last serenade

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.

Your mine or im yours.

why cant you just stop helding
me back into the past bushes in life
it an unexpected things for you to confess
you make me to a stop about judging you, friend
can i stop all this but how, my hearts still want all this
to happen. you are to good for me. i hold back and think
are you suppose to be mine or you are just another someone
to keep me accompanied when im all alone in the nights. confused.

but if we both were meant to be together, surely one day both path of life will eventually cross once again and perhaps that time the question in your heart will eventually found an answer my dear boy ((:

Tetamu ouhh tetamu

Which one of you out there are perfect,

suggestion. Sure in a group there a gossip about

one another. Confirm! That part of life. Im not pretendin

to be nice either, tell you what honestly. Girlfriends, i did talk

about you, you, you and every single one of you. You sure did to

talk behind my back, it lie for answering no. I dont care what you gonna

judge me after this. Ignore me or even hate me. Now, i being honest to say

out loud. HEY, PEOPLE I DID TALK BEHIND YOUR BACK. My mouth

is not perfect it neither my heart of thinking to. But please, if you regard someone

as your friend and you lead a mature mind set you surely dont care about all this. I

just dont know why or how all my post seems to fake to that MATURED people. Are

you my mind or thoughts ? Since you can easily judge my posting. No time to waste my time

to all this shit and crap! You can do whatever you want, as you think you are done and happy.

Somtimes i guess this person parent just didnt thought them that well since they only know how to

spam. What the hell. I guess maybe this person really put their heart and soul to the talk about cyber

awarness if they are one of my school mates. Fuck you. Stupid virgina human souls and pathetic pennis.

L O V E

Fine, im in love but not with him

with someone that you guys shouldnt know

and i meant it this time, parapapap. so long sucker

sometime they are better

I got a long list of names here,
dont be jealous if yours not here.

I love:

shakinah, hidayah, sharifah, dini, haziqah, dewi, natdya, reena, lynn, eeza, fadilah,
cheryl, jinghui, cheryl. francis, zhi wei, qaiyum, zaidil, zaimi, syazwan, asri, idzhar,
rusde.

* i dont think i did miss anyone.

shakinah my bestfriend

Oh my, can you guys actually believe this people are

jealous about my life nowadays. i dont know that actually

i have a fan, thanks you so much. thanks for being concern about

my daily life. i guess, this people have no bestfreind, girlfriends and

boyfriends in life that the reason why they bother disturbing my perfect

and bright life. too bad for you not being me. i dont take others as my enemies

but indeed i make them my friends eventhough they hate me. come on you just need

an attitude to get a life, a happy life just like me. im okayy if you make me an idol in life.

the smile in my face

you are the only subject that i learn,
the only topic that i would talk about.
the only name that i would smile if my phone buzz.
you would always take my breath away,with everything you say.
you are who im thinkin of everyday, and you are not my runner up.
and no matter what or why, you are always and will be my number one.
the only guy that make me move on in life. i hate you for giving my heart to.
and i envy to see that the one i love gave his heart away to someone who dont
deserve it on how much you try to have her or love her with all your souls, dam you.

"live with no excuses and love with no regrets" by montel.

Reason to my smile.

They are the funn,
They are the laughter.

Make me smile, losst my voice,
Brighten up my day & mostly they rockss.
You cant find them anywhere because they are
my friends they choatic friends. I love them like hell.
Normal Academic all the way, dont be jealous people.

Anyway, Natdya. Im sorry to hear about you and him.

Be strong eventhough it turn up without you wanting it.

It life, Nat. Deep deep in you still have him in you, obviouslly.

We will always be with you, my dear, Especially Reena. She been

through with you thick and thin, up and down. Down remince the past

it would make your heart even worst. Move on my dear. xoxo, love you.